Just lovely

Hello San Diego, we meet again. Perfect beach weather 😎🌴☀

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:03:09 -0700

Hello San Diego, we meet again. Perfect beach weather 😎🌴☀

My best friend since SPOP 8, he’s amazing 😊💕 It’s...

Sat, 18 May 2013 02:45:00 -0700

My best friend since SPOP 8, he’s amazing 😊💕 It’s been 3 years now and he’s always been there for me. He’s da bestest.

& you wonder why I’m the way that I am.. Haha my mama...

Sun, 12 May 2013 14:16:16 -0700

& you wonder why I’m the way that I am.. Haha my mama is so cute 😘 She’s the best, I don’t know what I’d do without her. Only she understands me cause we’re so alike 💕 Happy Mother’s Day to all your beautiful mom’s out there!

Happy 21st Birthday to my lovely gf 😘 I should def visit you...

Sat, 11 May 2013 13:48:44 -0700

Happy 21st Birthday to my lovely gf 😘 I should def visit you more often in San Diego. & I love how we always go to concerts w/ Chepi, I’m ready for next year 😊 #alltimelow #maydayparade #soma

Lucky to be surrounded by these wonderful people 😊

Fri, 10 May 2013 02:17:32 -0700

Lucky to be surrounded by these wonderful people 😊

This past week alone has been an emotional roller coaster for me. But it has definitely taught me a...

Wed, 08 May 2013 13:23:00 -0700

This past week alone has been an emotional roller coaster for me. But it has definitely taught me a lot and made me realize things that I wouldn’t have appreciated before till all of this happened. Have you ever wanted something so badly, only to have it fall apart right before your eyes? But then realized that you didn’t appreciate it till it was gone or taken away from you… I felt that way and for so long, I was trying to hold onto something that I knew I had to let go even if it meant letting go of it for only a little while. I had to learn to be strong and be selfish for once, I had to learn to think of myself and my happiness before I worried about everyone else’s. I had to learn to let go for the better, to let things fall apart on its own instead of focusing on trying to make things better because clearly some of these instances were beyond my control. Now that the problem was solved and decisions were made, I had some time to really reflect on the entire situation and realized so much more. Words can’t justify emotions, they can merely express how one truly feels. For awhile, I was afraid to say how I feel because that meant admitting my mistakes, my fears, my worries, and unnecessary thoughts. Not until I finally opened my eyes to realize that I was worrying too much and letting things affect me so much did everything become so much clearer. I was inspired this weekend to do so much more, to fight for my dreams and what I really wanted, to rekindle things about myself that I always tried to hide or pushed aside because I never thought that I was good enough, to reflect upon who I am and who I want to be one day in the future. And I did. Something about me is different, but it’s a good different. The kind that changes you for the better and motivates you to become an even better version of yourself. So from now on till the time is right again, I promise to only better myself and to be the best version of myself every single day. I promise to set my priorities, to figure my life out, to set my goals and find any possible way to achieve them. I’m just so thankful to have you in my life to inspire me to be selfish for once and think solely of myself instead of worrying so much about everything else. I know it may not make sense but I know that only you will understand. Your considerate and thoughtful nature has proven to me that this is real. It always has and always will be.

While you venture into the world and grow individually, I promise to do the same. Who knows what the universe has in store for us, but thank you for reminding me that somehow it always brings us together in the end. Even if it will test our patience and everything in between, I always know it’s worth it. It can only get better from here, I know it.

An appreciation post to the 3 people in my life who have def...

Thu, 02 May 2013 01:57:14 -0700

An appreciation post to the 3 people in my life who have def changed my life for the better & motivate me every single day to be the best version of myself. Thank you for always being there for me this past year, I couldn’t ask for anything more. I love you, #teammika for life 💕#tbt

Thought it was time for some change. Got rid of my long, boring...

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 16:37:32 -0700

Thought it was time for some change. Got rid of my long, boring locks and layered it all over(:

It just amazes me how somehow you always prove me wrong and still find different ways to show me...

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 04:09:17 -0700

It just amazes me how somehow you always prove me wrong and still find different ways to show me that your feelings for me are real. Even from hundreds of miles away, I can feel it all the way from here. Whenever I’m starting to have doubts or experience moments of weakness, I swear you have perfect timing and rescue me from it all. It’s like you just know, without even having to see me or hear my voice that there’s something wrong and find the perfect time to just make it all better instantaneously. It’s as simple as that but the impact that you have on me is tremendous. I’m forever changed by you. Even if we don’t talk to each other all of the time or as much as we used to before, even if I probably won’t be able to see you for maybe another month, or even if our busy schedules never seem to match.. they can’t take what’s ours. They can’t change the way that I feel about you. I don’t regret the decision that I made to be with you one bit. I know that it seems as if we’re being tested right now but you reminded me to just take things day by day and smile just knowing that I have everything that I could ever ask for. And you’re right, I should just be thankful that I have someone as amazing as you in my life. I wouldn’t change it for the world. I really wouldn’t. I’m just counting the days till I can see you again and remember why the wait is worthwhile. It just hurts, missing you too much the way that I do. I’ve learned so much from my past and have used it to better myself and the way that I used to look at things. Everyday is a challenge, that I’ll admit but at the end of the day just being able to talk to you reminds me that it’s worth every second even those that I spend away from you. So thank you, for always believing in me, for always giving me the strength and courage that I need, for always making me smile even during the hardest times, for putting up with me and my various moods, and for loving me for all that I am.

I can’t believe it’s over.. But I’m seriously...

Sat, 20 Apr 2013 17:51:50 -0700

I can’t believe it’s over.. But I’m seriously beyond blessed to have so much love and support from people who matter the most 😍😂 From the bottom of my heart, thank you to everyone who attended, participated in, supported and made #pacn34 possible. I’m forever grateful 💕

A perfect Friday with the best roomies ever 👭👭💕 We haven’t...

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 16:23:03 -0700

A perfect Friday with the best roomies ever 👭👭💕 We haven’t hung out like this in forever 😂 I missed this so much.

This is probably why I’m irrationally terrified of clowns...

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 14:31:26 -0700

This is probably why I’m irrationally terrified of clowns 😓😕 Haha thank you to whoever put that in my crib #tbt

People often overlook the simple things in life and don’t take the time to stop and smell the roses....

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 03:51:49 -0700

People often overlook the simple things in life and don’t take the time to stop and smell the roses. They don’t have the patience to just reflect upon things and just be thankful. Instead of enjoying the moment, we worry so much about the future concerning the things we have to do in so little time. Instead of focusing on the present state, we look back to our past and try to compare it to the way that things are now. Or we let the fear of the unexpected future succumb our minds and change the way we feel about things. I’ve been trying to change this about my everyday life because I realized recently that I’ve been guilty of doing this all. I let my fears and worries get the best of me sometimes. I let unnecessary thoughts take over my mind and alter my moods. Instead of just basking in the moment and taking it all in, I do the complete opposite and stress over every little thing especially the things that I cannot control. I let it affect me so much and I hate it. I dislike how much it changes me and ruins everything. I never seem to have faith in myself and I am constantly so hard on myself. But this, I must work on and change. I need to break out of these bad habits and truly appreciate the little things in life. I need to do this before I start to lose control and slowly lose myself along the way.

Let’s take it day by day, tackling only one thing at a time instead of trying to do everything all at once. It is true when they say that it’s the simple things in life that we forget. We shouldn’t let this happen. We should always be thankful and humble.

My first time trying a PB&J soda 😏 It’s like magic,...

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 11:45:37 -0700

My first time trying a PB&J soda 😏 It’s like magic, idk how they even do it! Haha and it tastes pretty good! 😛

Just cause Pre-Party was a success, hope y’all had fun 😊...

Fri, 05 Apr 2013 11:06:46 -0700

Just cause Pre-Party was a success, hope y’all had fun 😊 One week closer to PACN! 😁 But Jose was our best friend last night hahah 🙈🙊 @karyn_isip @kryssimay @africaland @drewthedrew @ittakesaspark #myawesomekbuddy

The most romantic thing I've done so far...

Sat, 30 Mar 2013 15:34:00 -0700

I drove 5 hours all by myself just to visit him. I literally spent only 24 hours with him but I thought that every second I spent with him was worth it all. I spent so much money on gas and drove for a total of 10 hours within the past two days but I don’t regret it at all. I haven’t been up north for the longest time ever and I made a promise to him that I would visit him over break. I didn’t plan on breaking my promise and thankfully everything turned out perfectly. I got to see a part of his life that I’ve never seen before and it honestly made me fall for him even more. It was really nice being able to witness parts of his life that I’ve always wanted to see and share that with him, creating new memories that I won’t forget. Finally meeting his family and closest friends made me feel special and justified everything about us. I know people may think that I’m crazy and ridiculous for doing all of this, but honestly what wouldn’t I do for love? I am so thankful to have him in my life and there’s nothing I would change about us, besides the distance. It’s just crazy how I find myself here years later, facing the real issue of distance but the timing is finally perfect. It’s finally all coming together. It may have taken a long while to get to where we are today, but I wouldn’t change a thing about it. You are definitely worth it all. You were worth the wait. I just had to prove it to myself and to you about how real this is. Like we’ve said before, this is the realest it can get. We’ve both made a decision and I stand by it 100%. I’ve been the happiest since you came back into my life. I’m just so happy, I don’t think you understand the impact that you have on me and my life. What’s crazy is that you’ve been there right in front of me, the whole time. It can’t get any better than this. I’m just curious to see where life will take us from here :) You’re truly a blessing in disguise.

My life right now: Eating goldfish while watching movies on...

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 17:22:52 -0700

My life right now: Eating goldfish while watching movies on Netflix. A very wonderful Spring Break indeed haha. I’m so lame but lazy days in are the best(: Entertaining myself at home alone in the new house that I’m still not used to, no shame. Haha

Pinch me if I'm dreaming,

Sat, 16 Mar 2013 01:04:00 -0700

This transient state has left me speechless. For once, everything is going perfectly and I shouldn’t complain about a single thing. Sometimes I think it’s too good to be true because I’m definitely not accustomed to any of this, to feeling as good as this. Not one bit. It’s as if all of my hard work and patience has finally paid off. It makes me really believe in the whole notion that good things come to those who wait. I’m just stunned at how everything is just amazing the way it is, I don’t want to jinx myself but it’s the truth. I can’t help but smile even for no real reason at all. It just feels so nice knowing that things are finally turning around and that my life is changing for the better. I’m proud of how far I’ve come and it is more prominent now more than ever before of how much I’ve grown as a person. I’ve made it this far on my own, but I promise to continue striving to be even better than I am now. There’s so much more out there for me and I know it. Only time can tell but I can only hope for nothing but the best. I’m just beyond thankful at the moment. Whether this is merely temporary and fleeting, at least I know that I will remember this point in my life. It’s been a long time coming and I’ve waited for this. After everything that I’ve been through, I think this is a much deserved state of euphoria.

I feel so disconnected from home, from the people I haven’t seen or talked to because...

Mon, 11 Mar 2013 02:26:52 -0700

I feel so disconnected from home, from the people I haven’t seen or talked to because I’ve been so caught up with my life here. I know that I’m at fault because I’ve been so busy and barely have enough time for myself with everything going on at once, but it just hurts. It hurts a lot not knowing things and feeling like a horrible person for not being a good enough daughter, sister, niece, friend to the people that I love. I just feel so guilty because I could never find the right balance. I could never please everyone, I know that, but I always wish that there was more that I could do. I’m literally trying to take things day by day that I will admit that I let things slide and don’t even realize it. I just want time to fast forward a little so that I could finally appreciate the much needed break that I deserve from it all. These past few months have really tested me emotionally, mentally, and physically. I’ve been struggling so much and it has barely turned around and turned into something better. It took a long time for me to get to this point right now but I still feel like it’s just not enough… I should be happy right now, but I’m not. I’m still disappointed in myself, always thinking that there’s more that I could have done. Something always has to bring me down and make me realize that I don’t actually have everything under control.. Story of my life. I just feel like my efforts sometimes aren’t enough even when I try so hard, even when I try my best.. But there’s nothing more that I could possibly do at this point except to continue trying.. even though it’s so hard to and I just want to give up.

You know you wish you were a 3rd year 😉 We’re so cute...

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 20:43:31 -0800

You know you wish you were a 3rd year 😉 We’re so cute & exclusive lol. Disney themed PACN Saturday Practice 😍 #pacn34 #40moredays