I just love how you get me even when no one else can. I love how I can tell you all of my secrets without any sense of hesitation because I know that you wouldn't tell a soul. I love how comfortable I am whenever I'm around you. I love how you know me so well, even the things about me that I never knew existed. I love how you stay on my mind all day, all night. I love how you look me in the eyes & tell me exactly how you feel. I love how you've never given up on me, on us & how you never plan on doing so. I love how your hands fit perfectly with mine. I absolutely love the feeling that you give me when you hold me in your arms. I love how I get butterflies in my stummy & can't stop smiling after you kiss me. I love the way you look at me & pull me closer to you, even though I'm only a few inches away from you. I love how you remind me everyday about the little things about me that you adore. But most of all, I just love who I am whenever I'm around you.
I went snowboarding for the first time on Tuesday. Big Bear was beautiful. The snow glistening along the mountains, the fresh air, the cold weather. The slopes were so packed, but luckily we were able to find last minute snowboarding lessons. Thank you daddy, for everything(: I love him so much and yes, he does spoil me. It was a great way to end ‘O9 & I was able to try something that I’ve always wanted to do but never had the opportunity to do so.
At first, I was scared out of my mind. As I was strapping myself onto the board, all I could think about was how much it would hurt if I fell. Haha. But then, I finally got the hang of it. Our instructors were so chill, supportive, & really nice. I learned how to do the J turn, glide, falling leaf, etc. I can’t even remember what the snowboard lingo is anymore. LOL. I was so scared to fall, not even kidding. Which is why I’d hesitate when I’d try to turn. But I was so proud of myself cause I was actually better at it than I thought. I was able to complete my turns without falling and go downhill without someone holding onto me(: Plus, I only fell ONCE! Lol. Everyone else around me fell so many times and I’ll admit that I found their reactions hilarious.
But oh my, I absolutely love snowboarding now. I fell in love with it<3 I love the feeling of going downhill without any care in the world, without the fear of falling, but focusing on your balance & not looking down. I thought that snowboarding would be a fail because I’m so uncoordinated & clumsy on land, how the heck was I going to do it on the snow? Lol. But I proved myself wrong & the instructors thought otherwise. I was even complimented on my balance, posture, etc. for being a first timer(: I really want to go back. I love the adrenaline rush that I get when I’m gliding downhill so fast. I just love this feeling. I can’t wait to go back again, I’m excited! Unfortunately, I am sore from it & my hands were freezing. Haha. But it was definitely worth it.
“If ever there is a tomorrow when we’re not together, there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart, I’ll always be with you.”—Winnie the Pooh (via kari-shma)
I miss you, every single minute of the day. The thought of you being so far, far away from me drives me insane. But like I promised you, I'll be right here waiting for you. I don't care how long I will have to wait till I can finally hold you in my arms because I know that moment will be worth it.
She’s hella sprung over this one guy who treats her like shit &doesn’t even care about her anymore , while the guy is just waiting for her to break it up &end everything . But on the side theres this other boy who has been helping her through everything , being by her side whenever she cries &tries to crack a smile on her face when her boyfriend treats her like crap .
Funny thing, I WAS in this position for a VERY VERY long time, nearly 3 years. I had to learn how to let go of that boy who mistreated me & broke my heart, over & over again. & in the end, I finally realized that I should give that ONE guy a chance to prove me wrong and he DID. Now, I am happier than ever & falling for that one boyy who never ceased to give up(: Good things happen eventually, love. It just takes time to learn from your mistakes and see the GOOD that’s right in front of your eyes. We all go through this kinna` situation at least once & we’re too stubborn to see what’s right in front of us until we’re finally willing to give him a chance. All I can say is choose wisely, be careful, & never forget to guard your heart till you’re sure of it and only if YOU think it’s worth it. Just keep in mind that everyone deserves a chance :)
It's the little things that you do boy, that's got me falling for you(: I wouldn't have it any other way, I don't care what they say.
I chose you over those other boys for a reason. The best thing was RIGHT in front of me all along & it amazes me how you NEVER gave up, despite everything. I’m sorry that I hurt you once before. I was being selfish & made a stupid mistake, but yet you still loved me for who I was and continued to prove to me every single day that someone like YOU already existed in my world.
Just because YOU didn't get what you wanted, doesn't mean that you have to act like such an asshole about it.
Thanks for ruining my ALMOST perfect holiday, jerk. Just saying. I was on the verge of crying for hurting you, unintentionally. & then you HAD the freaking nerve to act like that. REAALLY NOW?!? You totally caught me off guard and pissed me off. All of this was totally unnecessary, I get that the truth must have hurt you & it caught you by surprise but last night, I saw a totally different side of you that I didn’t expect. & must I say, I HATE IT.
I know that I’ve made the right choice, I’ve known ALL along. I’m happy, happier than I’ve ever been & I absolutely love the way he makes me feel. Nothing and NO ONE is going to ruin this, not this time around. If you can’t respect my decisions, be supportive, or be sincerely happy for me.. well then just FUCK OFF, thanks.
“With every moment we share, every smile, every touch, I become more certain that in you, I’ve found something I’ve looked for a very long time. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know how much your love excites me and how happy I feel when I’m with you. And, from this day forward, that’s more than enough.”—(via eletheowl)
“I love you because I know you’re always there, there to catch me when I fall, there to listen when I need you, there when I feel alone. I love you because you understand me, you know how I feel even when I can’t say it. You know I’m not as strong as I say and still you never let me know that I’m not fooling you. I love you because you make me believe, believe that I am not worthless. Believe that I can be loved, am loved, and can love others. I love you because you know, you know I feel this way but can’t say it and still you wait, letting me take my time to come to terms with the fact that I love you. I would give my life up to be with you, and above all never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you.”—(via eletheowl)
I think there's a possibility that I'm falling in love all over again..
Slowly but surely, this feeling that I feel.. it’s a SCARY thought, don’t get me wrong. But there’s just something about him that’s making me feel this way. At the same time, I am no longer afraid to fall in love with this boyy. & If one day I do, I’ll smile and know that I’m making the right choice.
“If I could explain love in one word, it would have to be trust. Trust that he doesn’t cheat on you, trust that he doesn’t lie to you, trust that he really likes you, trust that he will always be there for you, trust that he can go to a party and not get high or drunk, trust that you don’t have to worry about him breaking up with you the second you wake up, trust that he will stick up for you, trust that he will never fall in love with another girl, trust that he won’t just get sick of you, and trust that he wants you like you want him.”—(via eletheowl)
“You are my best friend as well as my lover, and I do not know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side, just as I have treasured our life together.”—Nicholas Sparks (The Notebook) (via kari-shma) (via suplove)
Nothing beats warm, lazy days in on cold, rainy days.
After I took the ACT, I went ALL the way to The Bridge to meet up with him. Even though, he made me wait for him..I definitely think that it was worth it. We went to his house and we were supposed to watch movies. BUT, I fell asleep in his arms while we were watching G.I. Joe(: Literally, a few minutes into the movie.. I knock out because I was so tired. The whole day, we just stayed in and snuggled under the blanket on his couch while we watched movies & just talked about everything. It was one of my lazy, chilling with no make-up on days but he didn’t care because he LOVED it. I swear, nothing felt any better than just laying in his arms & holding his hands. I was so tired after a LONG & hectic week, that I probably slept in his arms the whole day. I was even laying in his arms while he was playing his video games :) LOL. Then we had dinner with his family all the way in Monterey Park & they took me home, pretty late. Overall, I had an AMAZING day yesterday.
He’s one of the sweetest, most amazing boys that I know & he’s MY best friend. I honestly couldn’t have asked for more..
I'm the type of girl a boy would be glad to bring home. Not even being conceited or anything. I'd rather be able to say "I'm a good girl & I'd give your son the best" rather than being the crazy ass party girl who doesn't have her shit straight. Feel me?
“Be thankful for every heartbreak, for they were planned. They come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. Their purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life. And you do.”—(via eletheowl)
Lowkey though, I still miss you sometimes cute boyy. Especially when something reminds me of you.
Like earlier, when people were looking through my phone…They saw that I still had stuff from you. I didn’t even remember that I still had that, till earlier. It made me realize how much I was REALLY starting to like you before ALL of this happened. Whatta` waste, just saying. It’s all just faded memories now..
I've always been afraid of heights. Been afraid to fall in love, been afraid to fall and not know where I'm gonna land. But being with you got rid of that fear. When I'm with you, I feel on top of the world. I feel as if I'm at the highest peak and I'm not scared of being so high up anymore. I can jump down with no regrets or second thoughts whatsoever. Because I know you'll be standing right there ready to catch me.
Meeting parents for the first time & trying to leave a good first impression is totally nerve-wracking. But I learned that it's not that bad, just be yourself(: It's definitely a plus when his mom likes you instantaneously. Apparently, i'm good at this kinna` stuff(;